They called me a no hoper,
They said I was going no where fast.
They said I was slow,
They said I was uneducated,
They said I’ll never make anything of myself,
They said I’ll be on welfare,
I’ll be moving from place to place from eviction notices.
I haven’t been unemployed for longer than 7 weeks since I was 13,
I paid for my own extra education,
I juggled 3 jobs and studies,
I got my first corporate job at 17
I brought my first house at 20.
This is my silent way of saying, fuck you.
Your words can never stop me,
You can never be louder than my desire to succeed.
Back me into a wall,
and I’ll break it down.
If I could relive a single moment for all of eternity. It would be those cold winter nights we’d spend on the couch.
You would mold me into you and tangle us in a blanket. We would have the fire place burning away, with our dogs peacefully huddled up laying on the soft rug close by.
We’d smile at them every time they would get spooked by the sudden sound of the wood pop.
We’d sip on drinks, giggle and talk for hours on end about absolutely nothing. Until you gently rocked me to sleep to the sound of your beating heart.
That right there. That is my forever Paradise.
Once upon a time, you were my hero,
You were all I knew, all I saw, all I admired.
Everything you did, I did. I was your little girl, I was your shadow, you were my leader.
The one who was supposed to set a bar for me. Silently teach me how a woman should be treated and that no less should ever be accepted.
What a shame it was, that I grew up and saw that you were setting an example of the exact opposite.
You also showed me what it is like to have my wings torn off before they even grew. You taught me what it felt, like to have my heart shattered, long before anyone else had the opportunity to.
Dear Dad, I still want to thank you. The scars I wear remind me that I am a fighter and no one or anything thing, can ever stop me. And for that, I’m forever grateful.
She had gorgeous blue eyes,
Not just any type of blue,
That type to make oceans appear dull.
She hid them behind these thick black framed glasses.
The kind reserved for modern day hipsters, though she was far from one.
But my god, did those eyes bring me to my knees.
Your softly spoken words tremble my bones,
Your smile radiates my life,
Your presence sends electricity through my soul.
You are the epitome of beauty.
You are familiar to me,
I have loved you before, in another existence.
Your skin like velvet running under my fingertips.
I have learnt your body in braille.
Loving you is the most elegant form of self destruction.
You and I,
An unknown chemical fusion of two essences that should never be bonded.
That’s what they said.
Only because they knew, together we were an energy so strong that we could take on the world.
And that scared them.
Oh sweetheart, it was your giggle.
The most alluring sound in the world.
That one that comes out involuntary with an uncontainable smile.
The softest most beautiful transcending sound on this universe.
If only you could hear how my heart responds.
There is a deep desire in me,
Somewhere penetrated deep into my soul, beyond all explanation.
To diverge, to abscond, to drift aimlessly perpetually.
Quivering beneath my surface, trembling through my bones,
Pecking my organs, electrifying my heart , fizzling through my nerves.
That pure desire to sculpt a new path,
Start a new adventure, changing everything that I have ever known,
My identity, my looks, my everything,
To just go and never look back, never go back,
To have zero regret and fall deeply in love with that open road.
She lulled her head into the nook of my shoulder, pressing her face into my chest.
She murmured, “Why do you love me?”
As I pressed my lips against her forehead I whispered, “My love, what does water taste like?”
She offered no reply, other than tightening her grip around me. The action spoke louder than words.
and just like water, my body cannot survive without you.
You are one of natures most finest beauty’s
A calm, peaceful, elegant flawless flow.